Why do I bother?

I am not sure why I bother doing this. Is anyone reading it?

I had taken some time off from blogging. I have been busy doing secret shops. My April payments will be well over $300 for that months shops. I am using my $400 grocery budget to do this secret shopping also for the most part. Sometimes I run low on funds right near "payday" and I will have to take my money the day before I am supposed to or I might use a credit card to pay for a mystery shop dinner. But all monies paid to me is not going back into my grocery fund. I guess my husband is putting it towards other things. I have 2 secret shops today to do. One of them is a product return so that won't cost me much, though I am going to have to buy something to prove I was there. We always need milk so I will just buy a gallon of it while I am there. The shop later today, that one I will have to buy atleast 4 things, I will try and keep it under $5.00.